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| Sunday, May 17th, 2009 | |
| 3:24 am | Heh. Went for a very nice dinner tonight with kueh, jo, keith and bec at Andrew's place! Andrew is one of the dudes in the WEHI labs, and he and his wife invited us for dinner tonight. Damnnnnn good food man. 1kg of Prawns, 1kg of salty and spicy fried chicken, huge plate of veg, spicy pork, sour and spicy soup, steamed fish, nian gao with yam, keith's tiramisu, jo's cheesecake, and bec's brownies were devoured from 6:45pm to 12:30am. That, together with a full glass of coke and 2 bottles of beer = GG FULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. Following that, went over to nic's place to watch theend of Grey's Anatomy. Watched 'That Thing You Do' as well, which I have to admit, I haven't seen at all in the 13 years of its existance, only really caught glimpses of it on tv. Liv Tyler played the girl next door so well. blearghhhhh gotta love hollywood romance ;p "...I said something that made sense to only you..." - Guy to Faye about the naming of the band It's a line that wasn't used in a romantic way, but think of the possibilities. Like I said - Hollywood Romance. You really must be feeling lonely, child. Go to sleep. [Aye, he's coming.] XD Buai bye good night take care and have fun ^_^ |
| Tuesday, May 12th, 2009 | |
| 1:47 pm | LOL On Scientific "Phisolophy" (LOL, idiot) subjects and how 'inventions' can be discovered via 'deduction' or 'induction': Invention is invention lah, knn, ask me deduct for fuck? -Tan, N.S.W. (2009) |
| Thursday, May 7th, 2009 | |
| 10:27 pm | .. WHY DID YOU COCKS PUT TAYLOR SWIFT IN MY HEAD Likes: Taylor Swift- LOVE STORY WTF Not taylor swift: Metric - Gimmie Sympathy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZEU41xd |
| Wednesday, May 6th, 2009 | |
| 9:25 pm | Haha Who the Nil are you? Anyways, random thought- You don't need people to survive. You need them to Live. KAY BUAI BYE GOOD NIGHT TAKE CARE AND HAVE FUN ^_^ |
| Monday, May 4th, 2009 | |
| 1:25 am | haha. Weird little thing just happened in the past 15 minutes. It's basically procrastination with a bit of heart and a smidgen of getting in touch with the inner me. In other words, being an emotional little wuss, but anyways. " When you love somebody it's hard to think about anything but to breathe" - Fruit Bats' "When U Love Somebody" Line from song is also played in following trailer: http://www.apple.com/trailers/fox_searc I want to watch that movie. Adam. Thought it was going to be about genesis, but I'm quite happy it's not. I've been sitting here for the past 12 hours or so, trying to get work done but really just slacking away, preparing for yet another late night rushing of my part of assignments due. Watching trailers for movies like these makes me wonder how lonely I really am. Watched Postgrad, Facing Ali, and this trailer. Want to watch all of them really, and the chick flicks just make me wonder even more. Some part of me feels somewhat like the lead actor in Adam. Inept at speaking freely with the opposite sex (and others at times), but the difference is that while I'm still somewhat finding my place among people, he treats other with unparalleled sincerity and honesty, albeit with the knowledge that they may not be so accepting of his socially awkward behavior. This moved me to think about how I was starting to think about who I am, what I should be, expectations others have of me, and mounting pressures of aging and becoming independent. As discussed before, it really isn't a lot of fun. True to myself (haha), a near instant counter thought was formed by remembering how grateful I should be at what I do have, and how I really should be happy(and am, but is it superficial? I try to live in the Here and Now, instead of thinking of what could be, but this will be elaborated on later) to be the person I've become throughout the shapings of life. I am happy about life and where I am. I just want more. It's only human. And an excuse for greed. I can see that you're upset but I don't know what to do? Could you give me a hug? Yes. . Adam, I'd like you to give me a hug. *hug* It was a bit scary to think that I would wonder about all these things. But I was focused more on what I could be and what I should be (keeping in mind all the things I want to be and what I am happy being). As the trailer neared its end, the solitude just crept in and starting swinging along side the roller coaster that was my thoughts. Buried my head in my arms and began to laugh at the silliness of it all. I've often told people to cry when needed, when feeling sad or overly emotional, as I believe it is a good outlet. I try my hardest to refrain from such an act in hypocrisy, as it diminished my feelings of self worth (or so I'd like to think). In the swirl of thoughts then lodged emotions of sadness and disappointed amusement at the irony of the entire situation, about how I succumbed to my own devices and how thoroughly funny everything was in overview. At this point I was chuckling while feeling sad enough to cry. So I did. Well, I didn't really cry in the truest sense of the word, perhaps teared is more appropriate (with a tad of sniffing and chuckling in between). Tears for laughter, inadequacies, solitude, missed company, missed opportunities, knowledge of self, knowledge of others, thoughts of me, thoughts of others around me, how this would be perceived, how literally insignificant this night to me as an individual in the grand scheme of things, and how silly the act was. All I could really say was 'what am I doing?' So I stopped, and thought to write it all down before I forgot how stupid it was and to serve as a reminder to not do it again. Moments of weakness and self reflection are not meant to end in seemingly insane bouts of tearful chuckles. In hindsight (retrospect?), I guess I needed to face a simple fact - While I am thankful for the life I have and am fairly content, I think I am lonely. It isn't needed at all, a significant other's company, but as mentioned before, it would be quite pleasant to have. Perhaps I'm a needy individual after all. We all are to a certain extent come to think of it. I mentioned earlier as well about how it might all be superficial. How deep does all this happiness go anyway? Being happy is what is important, but am I really satisfied with just this...? Yes. I think I am at least. Funny thing, I've just typed out the required amount of words for my assignment haha. I won't be sleeping till 5 it seems. What horrid time management. I have to do this - I am not feeling emotional anymore (emo, if you like), sad, happy, melancholic, etc. I'm just sleepy, so there is no need to worry about anything. Presumptuous of me, but I think it better to comfort those that might worry even if it isn't needed. Oh and on another note - Damn you for not working msn. Buai bye, good night, take care and have fun. I know I did. Current Mood:  amused |
| 1:00 am | hmm. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PyrfzzUT hmm.. Where was that ode again? Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Sunday, May 3rd, 2009 | |
| 10:39 pm | Hmm. I doubt many of the people who read this can understand Japanese, but I think you'll get the idea of the animation. http://www2.atpages.jp/ngravity2/html/h |
| 12:59 am | heh Haha, Tama and Jiren both arrived in the past two days, but mr fu going back tomorrow. Hope he has a good one. Ate, drank, and partied well over the past two days as well. Haven't slept very well though hahahahahaha. Thursday, finally had dinner with kueh, keith, tama, and dai lou at ROSE GARDEN. FREAKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. Sad though, the tea wasn't all that superb =/ Went to drink with him after that, then off to the twins' house to watch tama play some drunken dota hahaha. That was quite a sight. Ahh good times. Late night/early morning stalactites, then off to fetch jiren from the airport with tiff and amelia. Sleepy breakfast at thresherman's, followed by a nice long sleep, then off to dinner with tama and the dota gang at shanghai dumpling after a huge meeting with Jiren. After dinner- ROCK BAND OMG that game rocks so much more than Guit Hero. Easier, yes, but so much more team play and overall fun! Then off to play pool with sean, tama, jack, and kueh, then back to keith's place for some wii 'arm excercise' fun, then Kung Pao on tv lol. Missed breakfast with the biomed girls, had a revealing lunch at ying thai followed by a nice afternoon walk filled with random nonsense to Brunswick with Kev, then back home before dinner with jiren, amelia, nick, and eu gene at Docklands. Ended the night with going to crown and meeting up with jac and her bf kevin. Back home and now msning with J, boss, and keith, dj-ing away while thinking of things. Now that all the details have been noted for future reference, on to the real thoughts. I laughed a lot over these three days. Friends are good to have around. These days have brought about plenty of revelations as well - pretty amusing ones at that. Good to know that people know how to keep things to themselves until it really matters though, common sense is plenty abound. Speaking with the bub at this time, I can't help but feel nostalgic. Miss sitting at hv or somewhere, chilling, talking, discussing, laughing, and just enjoying a comfortable evening with the bubs. Times like these I just miss their company. It's a good thing to have online capabilities to aid in our keeping contact, but it's the actual being together that really rocks. Laughing alone really isn't all that fun. Seems to be the season for togetherness. Makes the solitude a little easier to appreciate at times, but also highlights the single aspect. It's a little hard to keep up the thought that life is all and well, which it really is, but yeah... just that little bit extra might be nice to have. Of course, as always, there is no one else to blame but- Yourself Thank you. Getting a bit late, and the thoughts got cut off by a stupid ass msn game. Screw yew and your inner flower bub LOL Buai bye good night take care and have fun ;p p.s.: Apparently, I sound exactly like The Killers in 'When You Were Young'. Go Figure, lulz ;p p.s.s.: Hyo Yeon is the best snsd chick, Tiffany comes as a close second ;p Current Music: Rise Against - Give It All |
| Wednesday, April 29th, 2009 | |
| 12:17 am | hmm. People should post their thoughts more often, or at least share them more often. Thoughts are nice to read/listen to. Buai bye good night take care and have fun ^^ Guess we should be doing that too [Perhaps] Another day, we hardly ever put down our thoughts anymore anyway. Grown up already have we? Not quite, just lacking critical thinking, or just enjoying the mind-blank that is youth. [-grin-] Current Music: Old old chinese songs. |
| Sunday, April 26th, 2009 | |
| 9:24 pm | . Hope you all have a good night, take care and have fun. Oh, and this rocks- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10akRxOT |
| Saturday, April 25th, 2009 | |
| 3:23 am | heh. Now I see. Non-issues. |
| 2:46 am | hmmm Hmmm, went clubbing cos dai lou was down, which was quite a fun night actually. Rather be chillling with the people who were at the club over coffee or something but yeah, was kinda nice. I should go clubbing a bit more often. I get to hear a lot more things that way. So many questions to ask now. Hmm haha. Oh welp. Buai bye good night take care and have fun ;p |
| Thursday, April 16th, 2009 | |
| 1:55 am | HA HA HA http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_s Man, that cracked me up. Sorry bubs, haven't been online much, but only because I've been enjoying my Easter holidays XD Really should be studying.. but that starts tomorrow! XD Buai bye good night take care and have fun ^_^ |
| Wednesday, March 18th, 2009 | |
| 11:55 pm | o_O Jie jie did this originially to me ages ago and I've been springing it on people whenever I'm feeling bored enough but here it is again, but this time I actually give you people time to think about it. Ask me any 3 questions. Go. |
| 1:42 am | hmm. On another note, I think I just realised something. I think I actually miss the whole verbal abuse thing we do to each other bubs. In some odd weird way it helps keep us all in check and reminded that we're not all that. Weird thoughts on a late night. Heh, this reminds me of the good old times in SJI. Buai bye good night take care and have fun ^_^ Your companies are sorely missed. I'd feel a lot more melancholic or have a sense of nostalgia, but this fucking bubblegum pop is preventing me from doing so. GG KARA AND SNSD/GG. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFt_ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ee3Ue8Na Current Mood: amused |
| 1:23 am | o_O As much as I hat- k, dislike myself for knowing how stupid the song is, I cannot for the life of me stop listening to this bubblegum pop nonsense @_@ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SCREW YOU SNSD http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFt_ |
| Monday, March 16th, 2009 | |
| 11:33 pm | Hmm Just watched 'Crying out for love in the centre of the world'. I cried. Rest in peace old friend. |
| Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009 | |
| 11:55 pm | hmm mental note of who to say when people ask me 'which actresses do you find hot' Nagasawa Masami and Emily VanCamp are <3 |
| 11:37 am | Hmm Been watching a nice Japanese drama called Proposal Daisakusen (Operation Love is the translated title apparently). A few nice lines in the show with the main message of not to let any opportunities pass you by. Also brings about the thought- would you willingly sacrifice another person's happiness for your own? Well, wasn't all that bad in the show, but yeah ahahhahaha it's pretty damn funny. "It's the occassional success that makes life interesting. It's expected if you fail, but you're a real man if you succeed." HALLELUJAH CHANCE NUUUOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH |
| Monday, February 16th, 2009 | |
| 3:13 pm | wtf Up in da club by wong fu ending - WTF but the girl is still hot <3 |